Mirror, Mirror. ..

On the wall...this life is no fairytale. That's for sure. At least, that's how I am feeling this fine Thursday evening. I am defeated today with worry, stress, pressure, he said-she said drama! I am worn.

This video came to mind last night (Thursday) but when I wrote this blog due to my being so tired and worn, I forgot to add this video:

I looked in the mirror tonight, Father. I don't like what I see...bags under my eyes, tired and hurt eyes, scraggly hair that desperately needs to be cut, extra weight. My thought Father is how could you love this mess of a woman? But then I felt your hug tonight as I was crying in front of my bathroom mirror. I know you love me, I know you want me to be healthy but YOU. LOVE. ME. unconditionally, forever. I am still hurting, Father, I am broken but am I really beautiful to you? What can I change? I feel so lost tonight, my Father. What do I do about those situations I brought to you earlier?


His reply is below:
Matthew 6:31-34 NIV

So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Stop worrying, Jen-Jen! I got this, go to bed and tomorrow will be here my beautiful daughter. Love, Your Heavenly Father

PS STOP WORRYING!

#Blessed

Too blessed to be stressed! Today being Thursday would be a great day to have a theme, yeah I know you've guessed it! Thankful Thursday or AKA Finding the Blessings when you are stressed to the max! Starting with 5 and hope to add more to this list if not every day maybe once a week for now.

1. God
2 Family
3. Friends (Yes, even the one lounging on my couch right now!)
4. My Patients
5. SuperE's Therapists and Teachers

Sunday Blessings...added 4-14-13
6. A beautiful day
7. My niece
8. Sunday School..the kids all of them and one today really stood out...JK buddy, you totally made my day! Sweet and loving kids, they are all so very special!
9. Food, I have food for my children to eat.
10. My children: SuperE waking me up with a kiss and saying sorry for something he did the day before. KK seeing an old pic of her when she was about 5 and taking pic of her standing in front of that pic.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013
The more I think of blessings, the happier my days have become!
1. Jody, SuperE's new sitter
2. My Dad
3. The girls: (no particular order) JMS, BA, RT, SB, CC, NR, BB, and B
4. Medtronic guy: Thanks for the Iced coffee! =)
5. My Lifegroup

Thursday, April 18, 2013
1, My kids
2. Sleepy Time Tea
3.Group 41
4. My husband
5. AG pseudonym for a person who has a huge heart that helps me.

Stressed Less?

Stressed-Less? I sure hope so!

Stress....what image comes to your mind when you think of stress?


Me, I imagine myself with hair that's standing on end like when you stick your finger in a light socket. A raging migraine, the kids are yelling and fighting...again, the dog is barking, the TV is blaring. I am standing in the middle of it all with steam coming out of my ears, holding my head, and all of sudden, I explode! My mind keeps racing about Girl Scout meetings, women's ministry, work problems, money, IEP meeting, KK (my daughter) has a music program, the argument the hubby and I just had...A scream comes out but nobody hears it. They just keep on with the chaos. Why don't they hear me? Why can't I find peace?

Hopefully soon through the new OBS with Proverbs 31 and Melissa Taylor's OBS, I will learn how to live with stress and finding true peace.

My vision of true peace involves an island all to myself with nothing but the quiet, good music, and a good book to read.  I just want some quiet and for my brain to just be still. When I close my eyes and think about that place, it gives me some calm but not entirely.

Apparently, there is a cure for this and way to get peace. I've heard it's through God and our prayers.

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful. (NASB)

That is the true peace that I am seeking. The only one who can truly give me that kind of freedom from my thoughts....God. I want to find peace that is focused on and based on Christ, my faith, a peace that comes from trusting in God.

For me, it's not so much the past that is getting to me. It's the present and future. I let those with high negative emotion affect me. I let the little things stick to me. I continually sweat the small stuff. I can't take anymore stress. I am about to break into a million tiny pieces!

Only Jesus can give me the kind of peace I am urgently looking for every day!

Dear Lord,

I want some peace in this crazy life. I don't mean the temporary makes you feel good for 5 minutes kind of peace. I need a life changing kind of peace. Something that is so deep that I can only get from you. My life has become total chaos and I haven't taken the time to reflect on what the peace we get from you means. Help me see you in the midst of my life. Help me feel your peace deep within my soul. Thank you Lord, for your love and for your peace.  In Jesus' Name. Amen.